You

I feel you in all of the empty spaces. I remember you in every empty room. I have an empty place in my heart where you once belonged, and you still do.

I have you in every way people you love are supposed to be had. I have you in my memory, my revelry, my melancholy, my victory. I have you in each and every part of me. Even with you gone, I still remember your favorite songs. I have you even though life decided to make you leave.

I have you dancing along the surface of my skin, I have you in the edges of my smile. I lost you when I was just a child. A loss like an itch in a phantom limb.

We were so young, you and I. And I feel you in the pieces that I’m missing. I cry into the sky and ask for you, and I pray to the fates that you are listening.

Hear me. Heed me.

Heal me in any way you can.

Whatever stage of grief this is, I hope there’s a place to land.

I still remember the sound. Metal strangling metal against the ground. Haunting dreams of this, I have a few. The chaos in this place of losing you.

Though this future will never look quite the same, my love for you outweighs the peaks of pain. I keep you with me, your essence resting on my shoulders, so you can see. The horizon, the way it rises just for us. Forever bound by this delight of brotherly love.

I won’t waste this life. I won’t lose the gifts you’ve given me. Every inhale, I remember what a blessing it is to breathe.

I sense you in the beautiful things. I hear you in the wind. I see you in the sun. You’re evergreens, you’re moons and stars. Sometimes my dreams take me into the sky where you are.

You’re heaven above me, ground below me, you’re the light behind the clouds. Even with you gone, I know you’ll always be around.

You’re my most beautiful memory. I treasure our time the most. No matter where this life takes me, I’m living for us both.